only 5 mins..

we both made a post within 5 mins of each other...
its like we passed by each other without knowing.....but feel that there was something missing..wen we passed one another...

wat u feel and said... is just life... u described how living is...
i feel tired too.. but if you're tired.. my strength will keep me up..and u can fall into my arms...
i'll hold u without fail..safely......until once again u can stand up by urself...and i'll be smiling beside you.... trust me.

i want to see you again...love you again..
i really miss you...

Me

I am such a confusing person...even I don't understand myself...at least not for a long period of time...I'm soo inconsistent...it's soo frustrating...cuz im indecisive...another thing is that I can't stay mad for longg...i get very sum yuen..n cave in...i'm sooo tired...physically...emotionally..mentally...i duno what to think anymoree...duno what to doo..duno what is rite to do...can i say that i've tried...but what exactly have i tried doing??...i'm soooo lost....n sometimes feel soo helpless...n useless...i just wish someone could tell me what is going on and the next steps...i dont even know if im sad or depressed...im such weaksauce!! *tear*...there is soo much tat i want to do...soo much tat i want to know...but all i've got is speculations...of answers...but not the truth....n im too lazy and unmotivated to do anything...i'm wasting time...and i'm already 20...sigh....

wishes..

i,
miss the taste of ur kiss...
miss the warmth of ur hug...
miss the softness of ur skin...
miss the happiness of ur smile...
miss the sweetness of ur voice...
miss the scent of ur hair...
miss the gaze of ur eyes...
miss the care in ur caress...
miss the sexiness of ur butt...

but most of all ... i miss the love in ur heart....

love u sor ju! (march 07. 2006)

~~ i just really wanted to post that post again..
i went thru almost all of the post again really quick... it all touched my heart... almost as if you were right beside me..so close..............
....sometimes i could feel u close to me... ur scent.. ur skin..ur touch...its like an aura that can almost recall anywhere, anytime...makes me miss u..soo...much.... soo much... i really want to give u that loving hug...that sweet soft kiss on ur forehead...then ur lips.. and tell u that ....i love u again... i want to see ur big smile.. ...but in a cute soft way.. and u kinda squirm a little in my arms... ...that feeling makes me feel im the luckiest guy ever..
that same feeling has been going on in my thoughts so much ...that the slightest thought of having to lose u... having to lose all those feelings... aches my heart so much... it aches....
..i cant express it anymore....

my only wish in the world is for you to love me again...to give me a chance to be the boyfriend you need... i kno i havent been the best i can.. i kno i was wrong..
i cant tell u wat will happen in 1 day, 1 month, 1 year, 10 years......nothing in the future is certain..nothing is decisive.....i will and can only make with wat i have in front of me......and to give up the feelings i have for you rite now at this moment... i cant do it.....rite now at this moment.. i love u with all my heart.. i can say that that is the truth... and i will try my best and do watever it takes.. watever i can do with my heart to keep your love.. because i would be unfair to my feelings to not do so...

i wish to hear 'i love you' from the bottom of ur heart again..



i'll wait for my shooting star.. no matter how long...