only 5 mins..

we both made a post within 5 mins of each other...
its like we passed by each other without knowing.....but feel that there was something missing..wen we passed one another...

wat u feel and said... is just life... u described how living is...
i feel tired too.. but if you're tired.. my strength will keep me up..and u can fall into my arms...
i'll hold u without fail..safely......until once again u can stand up by urself...and i'll be smiling beside you.... trust me.

i want to see you again...love you again..
i really miss you...

Me

I am such a confusing person...even I don't understand myself...at least not for a long period of time...I'm soo inconsistent...it's soo frustrating...cuz im indecisive...another thing is that I can't stay mad for longg...i get very sum yuen..n cave in...i'm sooo tired...physically...emotionally..mentally...i duno what to think anymoree...duno what to doo..duno what is rite to do...can i say that i've tried...but what exactly have i tried doing??...i'm soooo lost....n sometimes feel soo helpless...n useless...i just wish someone could tell me what is going on and the next steps...i dont even know if im sad or depressed...im such weaksauce!! *tear*...there is soo much tat i want to do...soo much tat i want to know...but all i've got is speculations...of answers...but not the truth....n im too lazy and unmotivated to do anything...i'm wasting time...and i'm already 20...sigh....

wishes..

i,
miss the taste of ur kiss...
miss the warmth of ur hug...
miss the softness of ur skin...
miss the happiness of ur smile...
miss the sweetness of ur voice...
miss the scent of ur hair...
miss the gaze of ur eyes...
miss the care in ur caress...
miss the sexiness of ur butt...

but most of all ... i miss the love in ur heart....

love u sor ju! (march 07. 2006)

~~ i just really wanted to post that post again..
i went thru almost all of the post again really quick... it all touched my heart... almost as if you were right beside me..so close..............
....sometimes i could feel u close to me... ur scent.. ur skin..ur touch...its like an aura that can almost recall anywhere, anytime...makes me miss u..soo...much.... soo much... i really want to give u that loving hug...that sweet soft kiss on ur forehead...then ur lips.. and tell u that ....i love u again... i want to see ur big smile.. ...but in a cute soft way.. and u kinda squirm a little in my arms... ...that feeling makes me feel im the luckiest guy ever..
that same feeling has been going on in my thoughts so much ...that the slightest thought of having to lose u... having to lose all those feelings... aches my heart so much... it aches....
..i cant express it anymore....

my only wish in the world is for you to love me again...to give me a chance to be the boyfriend you need... i kno i havent been the best i can.. i kno i was wrong..
i cant tell u wat will happen in 1 day, 1 month, 1 year, 10 years......nothing in the future is certain..nothing is decisive.....i will and can only make with wat i have in front of me......and to give up the feelings i have for you rite now at this moment... i cant do it.....rite now at this moment.. i love u with all my heart.. i can say that that is the truth... and i will try my best and do watever it takes.. watever i can do with my heart to keep your love.. because i would be unfair to my feelings to not do so...

i wish to hear 'i love you' from the bottom of ur heart again..



i'll wait for my shooting star.. no matter how long...

love is..

love is a funnie thing....it creeps up n jumps on you wen u are unaware...n wen u r in love...it's only for a while...after that it's called loving....at first it may seem to be too much commitment n responsibility...but it's not actually that hard...it's comfy...it's familiar...it's love.

being together for so long can sometimes take a toll on the relationship....cuz there will be lots n lots of little pebbles that mite trip us...but once the pebbles r passed...u will realize tat it was only a tiny speck on the path...as u move furthur along the path...u wont be able to see the pebble no more...the big picture is wat is up ahead...

Twenty One Year Old HuNn!!~

Wow I can't BELIEVE that I'm dating a 21 year Old!!! I'm SOOOoOOoOo CoOooOOL!! LIke sOooOO AweSOME! although you don't feel any different...i noticed something that was different...

1.) You are NoW 21 and dating a 19 Year OLD!!
2.) You Got TALLER!! :)
3.) No WRINKLES!! YAYAY!
4.) u're ONe year more Mature!!
5.) You've still got your WISDOM!! (teeth)HahhahAhA
6.) Your GF attended the ENTIRE PartY!!
7.) You now have more ASSets!! :D
8.) Your name OLD MAN officially takes effect!! hheheh JKs!
9.) You've been promoted from Bebe to BEBE!
10.) Your GF has LOVED you for more days then your last birthday! :) and is STILL LOVING YOU

you don't believe me?!?! I took some pictures of you on the day you were OFFICIALLY 21!! it's LIVING PROOF! SEE..

BEFORE

This is when you were 20!!

AFTER

Now You Are 21!! Different Much?!!?

A picture of me and you..(eww i look soo weird)

Another picture of us..which one is better?!?! Wow such a BIG DIFFERENCE!! HEHEH!

This one is JUST WEIRD! HEHEHE! This is your TRUE LOOK when you turnED 21!! :) and I become a MONKEY! SHHH!!
I LOVE IT!!

there was another part to this post...but because of my stupid internet...it kept screwing up.. n it ERASED IT! SOOO GAY! GRR! but the main part is the above section! :)

HunN..did you know that ngor gok duck nei hooo ging gaH! :D u're my idoL! n u r the one that makes me smiLe by just looking at yOU! WAh SOO GING! see I told you! :)

and did u know that..it makes me smiLe everytime that I say "i love you too!" :D..cuz u're the only one that i can say it too :) makes me feel soo special!! you are soo AweSoME!! :)

I LOVE YOU TOO! :)

sorJu loooooooves beBe Ho DooR Hoo DoooR! and i know that i'll always be safe with you!! cuz u'll always hold my hand..n never let gooo! :) yYyayYAya!

...thank you :)

The Way You Look at Me...

CHRISTIAN BAUTISTA lyrics

Long time noo post la!!

hey hun! good morning! (hopefully you'll see this update in ur newscrawler thing :p) it's like bebe's morning newspaper! hehe! i get to see u in a few hours!! :D

"christmas christmas time is near, time for joy and time for bears. i've been good, but i can't wait.. so hurry christmas don't be late!"

wah! our second christmas together.. well kinda like the first..cuz last year didnt really count.. i noe this christmas is gona be extra warm and happy for me cuz i've got u! :D and all i want for christmas is BEBE! :) i'm gona miss u lots during ur ski trip!! but it'll be okay cuz it'll make me think of u like crazy!! hopefully im still normal when u return hehe!

wanna see something reallie cool?!?! cute??!?! soon-to-be ours?!?!

how about this one?? too mean looking??

aww these ones are cute and so white! :)

aww but these look soo cute too! :P or rather..PERFECT! :)

OR this one! Stitch hoo gwai gaaa!! :P hehe!

well i got to get back to work now.. im like 1/2 way done :) but i took a break to post this :D

TEXT ME WHEN YOU FINISH READING THIS POST! :)

i love to hear your smiley voice! soo sexie!! :D

I MISS YOU HUNN! I LOVE YOU HUNN! LOVE ME TOO HUNN! ME TOO HUNN! :)

okoies see you super soon!! :D

Toodlez!

Cooking you some LOVING!!

*soo cute!!

Shall we dance??

(In a school gym...a boy and girl stands on opposite ends...waiting for their one true love to find them...as the boy looks around the room surrounded by girls...the moonlight shines a spotlight down on a girl...the luminous light twinkles in her eye. Their eyes meet...and at that second, the world stops...everything stops spinning...both the boy and girl slowly makes their way towards eachother, brushing away the falling stars and sparkles...as they are within arms reach the boy takes a deep breath and...)

Boy: You're beautiful..have I meet you before??

Girl (blushes and looks down shyly...): I-I-I don't think soo. I'm new to this school...

Boy: Did it hurt??

Girl (puzzled look): What?

Boy (mischeivious grin): When you fell from heaven... (takes her hand and kisses it...)

Girl (smiles shyly): ohh...(slowlys looks into the boy's eyes..their gazes meet)

Boy: Would you like to dance?

Girl: B-B-But I don't even know you...

Boy (takes her into his embrace and sways her off her feet): You have the most beautiful eyes..(brushes her bangs away from her face and push her hair behind her ears..) What's your name?

Girl (blushing madly and feels her heart beating really fasts..): Sherry...and you?

Boy: What a lovely name...I'm Kelvin...

(as they start to dance, the school gym slowly turns into a romantic ballroom with just the two of them dancing...in each other's arms...)

Like my story?? it just started...how will it end? i can't wait to see u in like 8 days!! then we can finish our dance...i love to be in ur embrace everyday, every minute, every second! I MISS YOU BB!! sooo much!! wish i could kiss you!!

you know wat?!?!?! u should learn this dance then it'll be sooo cooL! u'll make me laugh and smile!! wat a great after exam present!! hehe!! I LOVE YOU HUNN!!! I LOVE KELVIN YUNG!!! CUZ HE'S SOO CUTE AND LOVABLE!!!

~*MUAH!!*~